new readable blog, I like to hear about other people's asshole ex'es so I don't have to go out and get me a new one to talk some shit on. I do miss talking shit on worthless guys. I wish I had one.. tee he hee. no i don't. I like being me, the only one in charge of my stars. and the direction they shine. Its too bad my stars are leading me away from my family and everything I know. I DO know colorado and people there.. but it won't be the same. never will be. shit HAS to change for me to feel at ease with me. I haven't been the same ole me since I moved from emporia it seems. KC was good to me, but I never quite felt right about it. Don't get me wrong.. it was fun fun fun.. living with crazy amanda and then K&A. those 2 were the best damn roomies. Then a meandering of random roommates, fallen careers, psycho boyfriends, recycling ex'es and to put the fucking cherry on my cheesecake.. the yahoo dude J. we all know what he did to me. and why he won't be expecting a call back any time soon. well, at least my worst nightmare has happened and i handled it well... as well as expected.
anyhow.. that is behind me. and the only thing ahead of me is the vast open mountains. I'm finally doing it. and the fact that i told everyone who would listen to me- might just be the only force pushing towards it. I'm too chickenshit to pull this off by myself. No one knows how grateful I am to 'shua for all his help, tolerance & encouragement. not even me.